Thursday, October 7, 2010

~I want both of you~


Everytime I'm in a bad situation I start writing. I'm writing and writing and then read what I wrote.. and then reread. Omg. It's so annoying sometimes. I'm annoying too when I'm talking about these kind of things. ? Or not ? v_v
                  -   because you two made me feel like this. I hate you because I like you two . But I must say Thank you guys because I wrote something really nice .. XP  Here it is :

As I go to bed with tears down my face
I turn off the lights
And lay down
Thinking of one thing

As my pillow starts to get wet
I start to fall into dream land
Everything turning into something amazing
Thinking of one thing

I start to see it all
I'm in tall grass
One boy on each side of me
Which one do I choose?

They both store in amazement
But at the same time want to fight
For they both want me
Which one do I choose?

One is my first loved
The other is my new love
Both wanting me
Which one do I choose?

"Don't you remember the love we had?"
Says the old love
Taking my hand
Which one do I choose?

"Don't you remember you love me now?"
Says the other boy
Taking the other hand
Which one do I choose?

As they both start to pulling
Screaming
Fighting
Which one do I choose?

"she's mine"
They keep saying back and forth
"No mine"
Which one do I choose?

The nightmare never ends
They just keep fighting
I can't stop them
Which one do I choose?

All of a sudden they let go
It goes dark I start falling
Where am i?
Which one do I choose?

I start screaming
But I hear nothing
I'm in complete dark
I'm lost

As I wake up in a jump
I sit on my bed
Looking around
Happy it was only a dream

I'm safe in my room
But I'm still thinking about that terrible dream
And I look at my pillow
Full of tears

But all I truly think about
Is which boy do I choose
What shall I do
When I'm lost and confused

As I lay back down
In my wet pillow
I fall asleep thinking of the terrible dream
Something so unreal

I keepy thinking it wasnt real
I'm safe
I'm fine
But I'm confused

Still wondering
Still thinking
That one question
Which boy do I choose...

Yea.. It's pretty long.. but ... It's real. ^^ . That's all. Going to sleep. Maybe I'll dream again that
nightmare.. Actually that nightmare is my life right now. It sucks ....so much.

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