~Sigh~

why can' t i ever get anything right? i just

want to make people happy and keep them

happy . but i' m just one giant screw up ... i

try and i try . but i never succeed . there' s 

lie after lie and i never feel whole . everybody

seems to forget that i' m sitting alone , crying

half the time . maybe they never knew ... i

want warmness around me .i want some one to

love me , for me . every piece of me , all the

mistakes . i have no innocence , warmth , or happiness 

to hand you . i thought maybe i could tell you 

everything . that you' d understand , make me feel

better about myself . but you left me here ,

in tears . i' m hating myself more than i

ever have . i just want to take everything

back . so my efforts are good enough for 

you . your utter disgust doesn' t help me at all .

i just want you to see that i' m the one

who went through all this . i' m the one 

who' s lived on with my secrets , and 

consequences . not one day goes without pain

or tears , no matter what i do . i just wish you

could see that . maybe because you' ve never

made any mistakes ...but please , just forgive

me . this is harder on me than it is

on you , trust me , please . i need your words

to keep me breathing , your presence to

keep my heart beating . i don' t want this

to be the reason it stops ... i just want 

you ... no , i need you . please , just hear me out .

i LOVE you ...