~The person i miss the most~

 I never really got to know you as an older person, with a better understanding of things than when i was eight or younger. You used to take us all out one by one, and buy us our hearts desire, oh how i wish that was still true. I never really got to say goodbye to you, i dont remember the last time i saw you before you left. I never cried. I never knew how to, i was young, but i still knew what was going on. I was more aware than anyone would have thought, i just couldnt. I wish i could have cried, but we all know that is who i am. Heartless and dry. I really do think about you these days, i tried to cry over loosing you, but something just pulls me back, it is liek you are there, telling me not to. You tried to make your time last longer, but we only gained a few month.Tiara says i remind her of you, apparently a lot, and i just wish  you could see me, and see yourself in me too, and feel proud. Because that would be my ultimate goal, to make you proud of me. I love you Amanda, and i do miss not being able to talk to you.