~I can't believe I'm having this feeling~

cry?

Because I really feel like I need one right now, like Id prefer it from someone else, but I know that wouldnt be possible right now. Ugh my mind always worrys me too much, its giving me a headache. imthinking too much, its just like, myself. My mind always picks up on things to try ruin my happiness... i dont know it sounds crazy but its the only way i can explain it, its like there is another person oof me in me and we dont get along. Like my heart is one person and my mind is another, and i always nag at myself making myself worry too much 

its just i know it might not be the case but its like somedays, he can give me the signal to forgive me, and he wants me back to him and it makes me happy and then other days my mind says that he would preffered me to just keep my distance and that he isnt that into me anymore and like i can think of more reason for him to not forgive me that him to forgive me. My mind doesnt like me very much i told you i worry too much -__- usually, it my mind, but when i start to be happy and enjoy things and stuff, my mind ruins it like it just wants to be heard and not my heart. Thats what I mean when I say, the problem is myself, cause its always me which makes me get upset from worying too much etc etc, and its always me which ends up hurting myself  ):  I hear voices eh? well thats perfect. i listen to music a lot to try help, but then a song comes on, and then i just feel shitterer [ehe], mmm but mmyeaa im just confused at the moment, cause I dunno if he likes me like he did or doesnt, and its stressing me out cause im worrying about it and I think that coz im stressing, im not eating properly, and then im gonna end up ill and i think i probably do have anxiety, and sometimes the stress can turn into physical pain and it sometimes does already and Im just so confused, and Yeah. But its me were talking about D: i worry enough as it is, I worry too much bout what i say to him, cause i worry bout what he will say and if i want to hear it, because I think right now i let myself get too attached to him, and i shouldnt have because were not even together, but i did, so now im scared of what could happen. But I still really like him anyways, and no one has said and he hasnt really done anything to say that he doesnt like me, but its just my mind trying to ruin this happiness i have found. It usually does. But yeah, I wish stress was never invented, and I wish I could learn to not worry so much.