~I will Shout ♥"I Love You"♥~

I sit there staring at the screen of my computer on yahoo messenger, smiling whilst talking to you;

the conversation is immedietly flowling, one sentence to the next as we talk tonight, i see you typing something just as i am typing something, i stop, you stop. but i am eager to know what you said, maybe you changed your mind? perhaps you love me afterall?

i'm staring blankly ahead at the dead ym conversation in front of me, none of us is typing now so i re-read the conversation from previous minutes and smile again. i scroll back down to were our words cut off and breathe heavily. silence. i start to write the simple, meaningful, three words ' i love you' into the message box. it waits there, waiting to be sent, but i lose faith+courage drains, instead of pressing enter,so awkward me tonight XP.

♥ you in my mind♥

I still think about you. infact your on my mind, from morning until night i constantly think about your smile, your eyes, just you in general. its almost as if i'm obsessed with you, i think i'm obsessed with your love♥. I just see your face, and 'our' memories play over and over in the back of my head. they wont go away, they never leave my thoughts.

 

I miss how you used to grab my hand and hold it tightly when it was swinging freely by my side, on the way home i miss how you used to give me your jacket when it was cold, & when you used to tickle my side when i wasnt in the best of moods..*huh* you always did know how to make me smile.
i miss those random texts you used to send me saying 'i love you' & those two hour phone calls where we'd talk about absolutly nothing, yet the comforting sound of your voice was all i needed to hear.
i miss your beautiful eyes. god, the sparkle in your eyes would make the stars jealous.
all i had to do was look you in the eyes and i'd suddenly feel overwhelmed with happiness, then you'd kiss me and tell me how much you loved me.
someone asked me if i was scared to fall in love, i replied 'not at all, because i've already fell'.

Pehaps i'm being selfish because i want you all to myself, but your all that i think about, every single day, i just want you holding my hand, kissing my lips, just surrounding me with yours♥.
I will do anything to be the one that you still wanted too. 

♥Just Want you♥

I want you to need me, I want to be the one of  your admirer can't have enough of. I want to be the reason you breathe, I want to be the one with the power to take it away. I want you to be the one joking me, protecting me, always wanting more. I want you to be my heart, I want to leave scars on your chest - I want to leave a mark from where I've been. I want to be the reason you smile randomly, I want to be the one you think most of in this world . I want to be the only one holding you here.

Basically, I want you to be me. 

You are the one I cannot get enough of, you are the reason for the breath in me - and you are the only one who can take it away. I will always want more of you, and you have truly left your marks on me. You are the reason I smile randomly, and you are the one I think most of in this world. 

You are the only one holding me here.

~wow.. i didn't think i'd meet someone like you ~

 I just have to say he's simply amazing, he is different from other boys, i shouldn't care what other people think, but the truth is.. i do. He sent me a text saying :

'you are the most beautiful, there are pretty girls in my campus, you are in a totally different one, even the prettiest girl in my year has nothing on you. and your really funny and unimaginable kind, for any boy that goes with you and treats you badly is stupid beyond belief. if a stupid weird like myself ever got a chance with someone so amazing as yourself  i'd treat you with as much respect as i possibly could, i'd make sure you felt amazing 100% of the time, i'd tell you how much i loved you and make you feel like 1 in a million star spining around my head.

 

he shocked me with his text that send to me,i dont think so he can made this beautiful word,i think he made it with hard work and use some translate,hihihi XP.......

 

BUT I DONT CARE....coz that's word was touched my heart now,beattttt-beatttting...........feel like I fly to the heaven huaaaaaaaaaaaa ......I Love You So Much Dear....

~I will be friend for her~

I am so sorry for not blogging in a while! D: Blogger's all weird..... Not loading things and stuff :( Pluss I've had so much work to do! I have an exam tomorrow :(

So I went over with my friend to someone I dont really talk to much, and we started talking then she said she was sad and shizz. She had like scratches on her  face so I asked her why she had them, and she said to make her look ugly so no one else would like her. I knew that her bf dumped her a few days ago but Awwww :( I know she's got loads going on and how her mums horrible to her and she was homeless for a while :( So I was sat there talking with her. I know Im not good at relationships myself, but Im good at giving advice. So I decided Im gonna make her feel happy :) Cause she said I make her happy :D Im gonna be like his little buddy to cheer her up :) Imma go over to her again tomorrow, and I will make her happy :) Then in last lesson I got this strange text from an unkown number. They wouldnt tell me who they were and told me to guess and stuff :P She told me it was her! Aww. So we talked a lot and seems we have a lot in common :) 

I really want to help her feel better, no one has ever cared for her and she needs a friend. When I went over to her today she was all on her own and her group just didnt give one ¬¬ Imma be his happy buddy :)

~New Begginings~

 

well, hello thereeeeee.

I had a long day, so god damn long! it's making me want to sleep from tonight until saturday morning.. and maybe even keep sleeping then.. I'm so pooched it's insane, I feel like a zombie! just going through the motions of everyday, but not really living at all.. just existing...... it's so dull, to make my way through life but never really doing anything worth remembering. It's... AH! 

K, K..... Enough with the depressive talk about boring liiife... second day of study went well.. hopefully it stays that way. I can't wait to actually have a little bit of money so I can buy books, clothes and stuff for my daily activity... oh and save some money for buy new gadget. I need to have a fresh start.. with all new people.. I love my friends.. but I still want to start over, just me.. no one else. Yay for new beginnings <3

Anyways, I think this is enough complaining.

loooooooooooove..

~cant hold anymore~

Great  minds discuss ideas

average minds discuss events

small minds discuss people.

I'm having a hard time with a particular friend atm who only want to bitch about other people :S

Instead its left to the few of us to try and steer the conversation towards something apart of from other people. Its not all my friends just one in particular who isn't really a good friend of mine, but I don't hate her or dislike her entirely, its just like its impossible for her to talk about anything besides herself and the people she hates! Talk about depressing! but now all my friends are just bitching about her when shes gone and then when shes there she just bitches about people and then I bitch about everyone on here! its just turning into one big bitch session lol 

Not sure what to do, I don't want to 'reject' her, she's not a bad person or deserves something like that, I'm just getting reeeal sick of her negativity.